I've to said that CHEELENG is STRONG and MIGHTY! Whoo... WHY? because I said so!:) * I know it's random and self claimed* I've the strength of 2 men I've the mind of 10 women *Boo Boo Boo! Heavily Blowing cow* It's just post examination craziness...bear with me :)
The storybook alike life has evolved and emerge into yet another interesting episode. Charactors have grown up and changes are deem to be seem. Time just do not wait for anyone and it's the best ever medicine in LIFE! Ink fade in time correction tape turns yellow in time wounds and scars heal in time [ my infected wound is drying and healing : ) ] Zip get rusty in time water get evaporated in time time time & time I'm a year 3 in time! Horray!
And Cheena is down with some MAJOR snow disaster! OH MY GOD! OH MY GOD!
And i went out with clarice and yeejie after the paper I'll miss them and wonders how they'll do in OCBC... Raffle lunch! Raffle Lunch! Raffle Lunch!
Not forgeting, i've already missed my buddy gang terribly. Since when was the last time we meet? Was it on Christmas? YES! Sad to say, It is ,... and it's already more than a month. I wan a family Photo again!
♥Yours sincerely♥
Monday, January 28, 2008 ' 11:58 PM
Ohh...another nice song to share:) Got it from kaytee's friendster.. []
[] If our love was a fairytale I would charge in and rescue you On a yacht baby we would sail To an island where we'd say I do [] [] And if we had babies they would look like you It'd be so beautiful if that came true You don't even know how very special you are [] [Chorus] [] You leave me breathless You're everything good in my life You leave me breathless I still can't believe that you're mine You just walked out of one of my dreams So beautiful you're leaving me Breathless [] [] And if our love was a story book We would meet on the very first page The last chapter would be about How I'm thankful for the life we've made [] [] And if we had babies they would have your eyes I would fall deeper watching you give life You don't even know how very special you are [] [Chorus] [] You must have been sent from heaven to earth to change me You're like an angel The thing that I feel is stronger than love believe me You're something special I only hope that I'll one day deserve what you've given me But all I can do is try Every day of my life [] [Chorus] []
♥Yours sincerely♥
' 3:07 PM
Love this song...
It has been here for quite some time
but i still like it.
Kind of sad but the rhythm is nice:)
[]
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Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see
That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be
I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she's got everything that I have to live without
[]
[]
Drew talks to me, I laugh cause it's so damn funny
That I can't even see anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night
[]
[Chorus:]
[]
He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
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[]
Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly,The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause
[]
[Repeat Chorus]
[]
So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight
[]
[]
He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
He's the time taken up, but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into..
[]
[]
Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see
♥Yours sincerely♥
' 2:52 PM
3 papers down :) one last one to go! Crazy times after exams just can't help but kept pending in my notes,definitions and key points congested mind; I almost forget that exams was just so near. I admitted that i didn't work hard the previous semester and i can see myself pushing hard this time round. Hope the effort tally with the results FMKT is over with SGX regulatory roles and stuffssss left unclear of. And is the final figure $9 300? Anyway, what done is done...
credit risk analysis administration... here i'm coming...
I'm so so so so so scare karma will come upon me for always being so bad tsk tsk tsk. I must be good =P hahas Steak Steak Steak!!! Can't wait for it... awww...
♥Yours sincerely♥
Sunday, January 27, 2008 ' 4:35 AM
I just want to sleep :x
Owning to the many overnite studying last week, My bio clock is screwed. I can't fall asleep. I've been tossing around on my bed since 2 till now, 4plus but still WIDE awake. Oh no. It's not going to do me any good if it persist on. Maybe downing 2 teaspoons of cough medicine can help since i don have sleeping pills at home. But, i'm not going to do that:) who knows if there's side effect?
make me sleep make me sleep i want to sleep!:)
meh meh meh... i don wan to count sheeps!
♥Yours sincerely♥
Friday, January 25, 2008 ' 8:53 PM
First of all i want to show my utmost apologies to 2 of my good friend namely Joy chua & Darren Coz i overslept and was late and they waited for me and and and so on... which made me even more sinful if i stated them all out. I'm sorry... :(
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And well, It's friday! And i've completed 2 major modules for this semester Business law & Fundamental of finance!!! whee :D
let's share my emotions for the past week... people who read my blog know i'm super depressed and stress out over blaw coz i don understand the terms and all the stuffsssss.... But since enlightenments came about on friday 18/01/08 i can study:) Studied FF on weekends Studied blaw on mon and tue blaw paper on tension WED.
but time just wouldnt wait and tick tick tick... I sat for blaw paper and tick tick tick ... It's over! I was smiling to myself when the invigilator collected my paper and the sense of relieve... I am hungry after the paper:) Went back to yew tee and bought 2 oily chicken wings to please my groaning stomach while waiting for my dinner at night. was still smiling to myself on the walking journey home. I totally cant forget the sensation while tearing and chewing that 2 pieces of totally heavenly chicken wings! It activated my almost spoilt tastebuds. It's simply YUMMY. * i think i'm gona buy a spring chicken back soon* after eating i fell asleep... there's still FF paper the next day(thurs) stayed up all the nite to study till 6am and catch some sleep and i toss around my bed till 7 while i was sleeping... it's all formulaes and formulaes and working and theory and calcuations in my mind. I'm already very tired. and worst was i woke up every 2 hours coz of the maths nightmare and fear of overslept, alarm not working etc... tick tick tick... sat for FF paper on thur and IT"S OVER! Phew...
went out w SQ and HP after the FF paper. Bought 4 dresses and 2 long tops I love Shopping:) Shopping is the sport that perk me up when i'm die tired :)
I think i'm hang onto eating steaks nowadays. after the 'not enough' steak session at hogs breath and we conclude to order the upsize steak of 400gm the next time:) salivating already. nevermind, i'll meet tiffany and gang for steak next friday:) Good thing it's deal! :)
though only 2 papers are down but it's still a huge release. No more staying up overnite No more coffee to have the instant boast which only help a little. No more blaw No more FF =D Happy cheeleng:)
awaiting list: The house and One missed call with darren and xue qin gang! Eat steak:) Eat sushi:) Eat steamboat Eat Eat Eat and EAT :) * eating make cheeleng a happy girl:) * Shopping:)
Oh...i can't wait for saturday shopping with huiping already :x about 13 hours more...
This songs are nice:) Tatto bleeding love teardrops on my guitar ever ever after
JiaYou for last 2 paper:):)
♥Yours sincerely♥
Sunday, January 20, 2008 ' 2:37 PM
Dear friends
Thank you so much for all the sweetest care and concern over the past few days. I appreciate it very much :) It simply let me realised that no matter how depressed i am, I wouldn't be alone. Like what Darren said " You are not the alone star on the dark sky; If you look carefully, there are plenty more who are around you and care. " Thanks! :)
Been FF-ing during the weekends, as long as i'm not reading blaw i think the stress factor is not that intense. so blaw is the culprit. Everyone is pumping blaw into their filled brain. Good luck to everyone! :) In less than 2 weeks all the exams will be over, so just gear up and finish it. :)
JiaMin is going to have a heavy week down the road. All the best for u ok? :) YOU can do it! I've faith in YOU! :)
*when things go wrong, your close friends who love you will Never go wrong! :) * *Wake up each day telling yourselve that ' today will be a good day! It's better than yesterday!!' and SMILE * after all, how u want the day to be depends on yourselve:) I choose to be HAPPY! :) and that's how i managed to smile when i'm typing this entry:)
♥Yours sincerely♥
Friday, January 18, 2008 ' 1:00 AM
At the rate i'm going on now, i may be insane soon. can someone jus slap me and wake me up? yes someone did already. The excruciating pain. The useless weeping. i silently teared on my way back from studying with joy and gang. The atmosphere was just too perfect. drizzle, cold, silent night and awful thinkings. xq, i'm very scare. I'm really really terrified.
blaw don seem to get into my mind, all the law terms are total strangers to me. i'm scare. it's only 1 of the paper. 3 more to kill me. Life, again and agian. repeating and repeating I'm tired, both mentally and physical. I can't cry or show any sign to mum who shown concern. But deep inside me. I'm freak out. i think blogging it out is the only way to leak out the fears i'm enduring.
just let it be. it's stress.
i don't know what i'm typing:)
♥Yours sincerely♥
Wednesday, January 16, 2008 ' 7:50 PM
Maybe the always smiling and cheerful cheeleng should be back? Yes. But for the time being, The smile on her face may just be there to mask her fear,unhappiness and uncertainties. Yes. I'm scare. I'm Lost. I'm unhappy. I'm cheeleng no more. I've lost the battle with myself. No matter what happen, cheeleng will never fails to hang that smile back on her face. It's a matter of time. :)
Exams will end in 14 days! It's something i've been looking forward to:)
Early in the morning, went for the flu vaccination Which said, will have side effects like feverish... are dizzy spell consider feverish? I cant afford to be sick at this crucial period of time. In the noon i still have the ENS test to sit for. =X
The test, The 40% ENS practical is finally OVER. :) No worries about it anymore. it was rather ok:) A blessing:) The people and the qns are nice=) We had fun negotiating also. Regina and me couldnt help but kept laughing at the unreasonable prices we gave to the OP. hahas. Before the test, Jiamin sent me a sms.
It says: " Hello baby hello baby! suddenly miss you so msg u! haha take care! exams AD AD huh!"
A simple sms like this can makes my day:) I love JiaMin! This cute little meanie=P
Thanks XueQin. She'll know why i thank her:)
Smile*
♥Yours sincerely♥
Tuesday, January 15, 2008 ' 1:15 AM
I love my friends!
I just suddenly realise how 2007 had flies..
*Remembered how i cried for months during May till Aug, for something that will never be back. *Remembered how i cried under my pillow when my parents were on the edge to divorce. *And not forgeting a long 7 hours chat which also made me cried like a lost little girl in the end of year.
Seeing my parents back together in happiness gave me a sense of relief. "I got back something, but i lost something." But at least, what i've got is worth IT!.
Once again, I thank these 'used to be' strangers BUT whom are now close angels to me who came from all walks of life save me just like an angel with Halo on their head * Thank You.*
Missmiss*
♥Yours sincerely♥
Monday, January 14, 2008 ' 1:12 AM
Some thoughts in mind.
1. Business Law do makes people go guilty and crazy at nite. :) Clarice and yeeje knows. anw i think it's more or less DONE!
2. words and words can be decieving, Trust them with precautious in mind okay? Cheeleng! pls be smart. :)
3. May i know who is GA? don tell me is gerald Ang! i remember his surname is Ong. so who is GA who gave me an encouragement email? I thank this someone for the email coz it was really sweet. Thanks! :)
4. Examinations coming soon. Give me the energy and concentrations to study can ?
5. I miss people loads. Love the people who loved me!
Worries:
1. After observing my wound on my calf for whole day, I'm utterly afraid that it will leave the red scar there on my calf! My leg! :( Please don't. ;(
2. Will i score what i want this sem? man, I'm so gona drill my mind with all the notes! Pls Pls Pls.... I'm scare like a rat now. I love chipmunks *being random*
3. What are Youu thinking? Shit!! Nah Nah ...
♥Yours sincerely♥
Sunday, January 13, 2008 ' 1:26 PM
The 10 - 12 of Jan was the SP open house. Busy yet fun! The people i've crap, play and hang out with. It's jus so soon that all those year 3 frens of mine are leaving the school in weeks. I cant imagine time move so fast that i'll be year3 soon. People like xueqin woulndt be in school anymore frm apr. I'm so gona miss her and loads of year 3 people. :( *sob*
Things are just so un-predictable :S moments of joy next moment... It'll turn into fear.
I think I've just enjoyed so much during this open house. un explainable feeling of HAPPINESS!
There's a ugly wound on my heel and calf due to a careless fall on the slippy ramp at poly marina.
worse still is the stratches on my calf were down w infectious for God knows reasons.
It's utterly disgusted and ugly. :(
The doctor fee cost $38
My mum gave concerns every now and then via sms and phonecalls.
I really appreciated it.
Love Mummy.
perhaps she's as worried as me if there will leave this ugly scar on my calf.
btw, to people who didnt see it, bless you. coz it was seriously infected.
The piece of nearly rotten meat on thur.
and those yellowish juice kept bursting out of my wound which make me lose my appettie.
It got much better after consulting doc on thur nite and frequently applying of the creams and washin the wound with the wash solution the doc gave.
I had to swallow HUGE tablets of antibatic also.
oops..i'm not suppose to blog coz i've not done w the Blaw report due tonite.
Hang on monkeys!:) heehee.
♥Yours sincerely♥
Tuesday, January 8, 2008 ' 4:21 PM
BOO... I've got a new entry but it didnt appear after it was posted. And when it appear, my blog all got hay wire. Pictures and words flying EVERYWHERE<>
Listen to the song tatoo by jordin Sparks. It's nice. Wanted to put onto this blog to share but things just don go my way. BOO.
Mummy is sick. :( I've Blaw report and Ma test to study for. Wish me luck. School is getting tense. Everything is pilling up on "tiny" me. I wan to breathe! sniff sniff.
love love*
♥Yours sincerely♥
Monday, January 7, 2008 ' 11:48 PM
This entry is random. But there is really a need for me to blog down. I may appear strong and give a smile. But deep inside this cheeleng hides a different emotions where i don think there is a need to show.
people who knows will know what i meant. It's jus life. I accepted it. So i'm living fine w it. Am i? Not sure. "Sunshine after the rain" Darren saw me 8.45am this morning in sch walking reverse direction. He sent me an sms to ask if i'm ok? I didnt reply coz soon after i met tiffany and was walking w her. when i'm typing this entry, he smsed again. Thanks Fren, at least i know u care:) Darren said, "yoz, you alright? today you walked past me and saw you quite depress..." Cheeleng replied, " I'm ok. I met tiffany after that ; and walked w her to lecture." Darren replied, "first time see you so depress. take care man." Qns: Am i really depressed this morning? I donnoe. I think so. coz i was so lost in school. * darren, Thanks! :)
♥Yours sincerely♥
' 10:21 PM
I'm sad to official announce that my BIG bear balloon is NO longer flying :(
When he is still flyin High! :) I found him lying dead on the floor:(
The Year of 2008 has finally came.
A brand new year
A new beginning:)
Everything will be GREAT! Coz i've got GREAT companions:)
This figures will embark in this up coming new,exciting,ever happy and happening journey of 2008 with me!
Whoo....
-my beloved JiaMin, HuiPing,ShiQi,Jesmin and Hui Li.
-Joy,Tiffany,Serkee,XueQin,Darren(dou miao/seedlings) -classmates> clarice, YeeJie,Vincent,Ivan and ChenLong -and all my other friends!:) *did i miss anyone out?
♥Yours sincerely♥
Belongs
♥ :)!
CheeLeng.
This Girl.
19.
1st April Girl.
Singapore Polytechic.
Banking And Financial Services.
This Blog Belongs to me
YES only Me!:).
I Love My Buddies (Buddy Gang)
I Love MY Friends!
I Love MY Classmates!
I Love The People .
And I want to be Loved. May I?
When he is still flyin High! :)
I found him lying dead on the floor:(